Finding a silver lining. In the recent past somethings in my life have happened that are just right crazy! Crazy I say... and not in a crazy good kinda way either. A crazy "have you lost your ever loving mind" kinda way. Yup.. that kind. I am a positive person and I always have been a girl with a glass half full... It might be full of crazy, but it is always half full. I like to look on the bright side of things. It helps me keep going. I learned from a young age that life is not perfect. We do not live in a bubble, even though that would be lovely and I am still trying to find one that WILL work for my children! Life is not full of all lovely things, and bad decisions and choices can make it even worse. I firmly believe though that God can use all situations to teach us things. Lately, I have been thinking what in the world is the "silver lining" of all of this. At first I came up blank.... blank as can be. I didn't see any good or even any "well, maybe that is what it was teaching me" moments. That frustrated me, because I am always one to find something there... even if it is just a glimmer. It was a hopeless feeling. Then I had a lovely lovely mentor of mine tell me, " just wait.. it may not be today or tomorrow or this year, but it's coming. You will need to use the things you have learned to help someone who will be going through a similar situation as the one you went through. Someone will need YOUR help to get out of the hole. God will bring them to you, so you can use THIS as a way to help someone else. There it was. It took my person.. that God sent to me to tell me that... and now I get it. I don't have that hopeless feeling anymore. I can take the "crazy have you lost your ever loving mind" and turn it into something good in the end! With God... all those crazy things can be turned into good if you are willing to let Him lead you! I am trying to do that... it scares me sometimes to not know when... today, tomorrow, ten years from now who or what might need me, but it excites me too. It scares me, because I am still human and still freak out! I need to stop that, because it's okay. Everything will be okay, because NO matter what, if I keep myself turned toward God and seeking him out he will keep me safe and prepared.
We have all had our "have you lost your ever loving mind" crazy moments.... some crazier than others, but they are there! Take those moments and learn from them. Ask God to forgive you and forgive yourself. Then let God make you better. Choose to let God lead your heart. Ask him to fill you up with his presence! It's easier said than done... I fail daily with this and struggle, but I must always come back. God loves me. He loves you. He loves sinners... each and everyone of us. Goodness, he sent his son to die the most ugly cruel death for you and for me. I cant imagine having the strength to send my Ari to be beat up, spat on, and then nailed to the cross. I get my momma feathers ruffled when someone cuts in line in front of him for the water slide. I honestly CANNOT imagine watching him get hurt, but what I do know is that God LOVES us enough that HE did do that....HE loves us in a crazy full over the top, unconditional, forever and ever kinda way.
So, I take hope in that. That even though I failed Him, I can now take the lessons learned and use it to glorify him.
Don't lose hope on yourself. God never does. He is always there waiting and willingly ready to forgive you and help you. You just gotta let Him. Don't take my word for it... listen to the bible. In 1 John 1:9 (from The Message) it says, " if we admit our sins, he won't let us down, he'll be true to himself. He'll forgive our sins and purge us of all wrong-doing."
When I was really down, my mentor told me to read a passage in the bible. Ephesians 2:7-10. Those verses really helped me. I read them out of The Message. I encourage you to all go read those verses! They have helped me and continue to help me everyday.
-Holly
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